1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:16,000 happily find the 2 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:31,000 Well, if you come in, won't you? 3 00:00:31,000 --> 00:00:32,000 Have some tea. 4 00:00:32,000 --> 00:00:33,000 Hi. 5 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:34,000 When I've wrote them down. 6 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:35,000 Can I help you purchase? 7 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:36,000 You run in and see your sister. 8 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:37,000 She's had a long wait. 9 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:39,000 Oh, you were a beautiful town. 10 00:00:39,000 --> 00:00:41,000 Didn't you go well? 11 00:00:41,000 --> 00:00:42,000 I didn't. 12 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:43,000 I didn't. 13 00:00:43,000 --> 00:00:44,000 I didn't. 14 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:45,000 I didn't. 15 00:00:45,000 --> 00:00:46,000 I didn't. 16 00:00:46,000 --> 00:00:47,000 I didn't. 17 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:48,000 I didn't. 18 00:00:48,000 --> 00:00:49,000 I didn't. 19 00:00:49,000 --> 00:00:50,000 I didn't. 20 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:51,000 I didn't. 21 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:52,000 I didn't. 22 00:00:52,000 --> 00:00:53,000 I didn't. 23 00:00:53,000 --> 00:00:54,000 I didn't. 24 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:55,000 I didn't. 25 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:56,000 I didn't. 26 00:00:56,000 --> 00:00:57,000 I didn't. 27 00:00:57,000 --> 00:00:58,000 I didn't. 28 00:00:58,000 --> 00:00:59,000 I didn't. 29 00:00:59,000 --> 00:01:00,000 I didn't, I didn't. 30 00:01:00,000 --> 00:01:01,000 I didn't. 31 00:01:01,000 --> 00:01:02,000 I didn't. 32 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:03,000 I couldn't. 33 00:01:03,000 --> 00:01:04,000 I couldn't. 34 00:01:04,000 --> 00:01:05,000 A little mad about god. 35 00:01:05,000 --> 00:01:06,000 But, I didn't. 36 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:07,000 He was back. 37 00:01:07,000 --> 00:01:08,000 I couldn't. 38 00:01:08,000 --> 00:01:09,000 He was looking for me. 39 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:10,000 But, you know, sir, he was off on track. 40 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:12,000 If not, he was on track. 41 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:16,000 Did noanton Khroglu were on display. 42 00:01:16,000 --> 00:01:17,000 theorem? 43 00:01:17,000 --> 00:01:18,000 Well, Phil, do not go well, 44 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:18,000 Bill. 45 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:19,000 He did? 46 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:21,000 Because he likes what he's carrying. 47 00:01:21,000 --> 00:01:24,000 He likes being out of the shafts, don't you boy? 48 00:01:24,000 --> 00:01:26,000 Not carrying a cart heterHD horse ratche riding SE Sonnyorse Freedman. 49 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:28,000 That is no HP toonomous racing. 50 00:01:28,000 --> 00:01:30,000 Aren't you, though? 51 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:37,000 I don't sit down, let me do that. 52 00:01:37,000 --> 00:01:40,000 I've been resting all day. A jounce is good for me. 53 00:01:47,000 --> 00:01:50,000 Oh, I wish it would work out for Doran Perchis, as it did for us. 54 00:01:50,000 --> 00:01:52,000 Oh, so it may. There's no doubt what my brother feels. 55 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:55,000 And Dora's certainly fond of his company. 56 00:01:55,000 --> 00:01:56,000 Yes, very. 57 00:01:56,000 --> 00:01:59,000 You've always been close to her, doesn't she tell you what she's feeling? 58 00:01:59,000 --> 00:02:04,000 Not lately. She talks lovingly of Perchis, and she does of you or of me. 59 00:02:04,000 --> 00:02:11,000 I'm so very, very fond of her. But I don't know anyone with such a natural turn for goodness, who at the same time is such an abiddle to me. 60 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:16,000 You think she's scared of another of your father's brainstorms, like the one when we got married? 61 00:02:16,000 --> 00:02:19,000 Oh, yes. The effect on our unhappy mother, maybe. 62 00:02:19,000 --> 00:02:23,000 But she lost the last scrap of respect for father years ago. 63 00:02:23,000 --> 00:02:27,000 When you just missed old Tommy Bowles, for nothing at all. 64 00:02:27,000 --> 00:02:30,000 Except that we children so loved the old man. 65 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:33,000 That was when she started calling him the jailer. 66 00:02:33,000 --> 00:02:36,000 She's pretty undaunterable when she makes up her mind. 67 00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:39,000 I wish you could have been with us today. We wrote nearly to Massel. 68 00:02:41,000 --> 00:02:45,000 Oh, there's my rich. How are you, lad? 69 00:02:45,000 --> 00:02:49,000 And how's the third person singular? The he or the she? 70 00:02:49,000 --> 00:02:51,000 Quite well behaved at present. Good. 71 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:54,000 Robert told me you had a good day. Oh, it was. 72 00:02:54,000 --> 00:02:59,000 Tom's up with him fell splendidly. Coming down was a difficult way. I could hardly hold him. 73 00:02:59,000 --> 00:03:02,000 You should have heard the cheer when she sailed over the wall at Spennythorpe. 74 00:03:02,000 --> 00:03:05,000 I hope Tom did. The cheer was for you, lad, not the horse. 75 00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:11,000 It was Tom that grew wings. I won't ask how things are at home. I can guess. 76 00:03:11,000 --> 00:03:17,000 Well, Brother Mark is coming on a visit tomorrow. That should raise our spirits a little. 77 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:21,000 If we can keep the jailer out of his way. 78 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:26,000 Oh, and Tom and I let that wall. I thought if only I didn't have to land on the other side. 79 00:03:26,000 --> 00:03:29,000 I could ride straight on into a world of my own. 80 00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:33,000 It's not altogether impossible. Is it, Rachel? 81 00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:36,000 Oh, my dear, the difference when I got away from the hawkswell atmosphere. 82 00:03:36,000 --> 00:03:39,000 The weight that was lifted off. 83 00:03:39,000 --> 00:03:43,000 There are times when I could throw even my Sunday bonnet over the window. 84 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:48,000 Rachel, you haven't seen the bonnet that Mark bought me when I stayed with him in Oxford. 85 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:51,000 It cost eight shillings and six pours. 86 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:56,000 I feel almost ashamed to wear it to think of so much money disappearing to treat me to such luxury. 87 00:03:56,000 --> 00:03:58,000 Why, don't you think you deserve it? 88 00:03:58,000 --> 00:04:01,000 Yes, every woman deserves a nice bonnet once in a while. 89 00:04:01,000 --> 00:04:05,000 Well, let me know when you're wearing it for Rachel. I'll also come over, especially. 90 00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:07,000 Just for a bonnet? 91 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:10,000 No, not just for a bonnet. 92 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:15,000 Rachel, before I forget... 93 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:20,000 What were you going to say? 94 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:22,000 I've forgotten already. 95 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:26,000 Do you remember those really hideous velvet bonnets we were made to wear to church? 96 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:28,000 How we bid not to wear them. 97 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:30,000 And then how it rained one day when the parents were out. 98 00:04:30,000 --> 00:04:33,000 And I thought it showed God didn't fancy those bonnets either. 99 00:04:33,000 --> 00:04:34,000 You said, come on. 100 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:37,000 Now's our chance to spoil our bonnets and never wear them again. 101 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:42,000 She flung open the window and we both pushed heads and bonnets into the downpour. 102 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:46,000 And now we'll put them back in the box, she said, to finish them off. 103 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:47,000 Good for you. 104 00:04:47,000 --> 00:04:49,000 No, it wasn't. 105 00:04:49,000 --> 00:04:53,000 Because we were forced to wear them publicly to church every Sunday for months? 106 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:57,000 To break my stubborn will and mortify my vanity. 107 00:04:57,000 --> 00:05:00,000 That's what came of making a bid for freedom. 108 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:05,000 So I really know that my instincts are not to be trusted if I give myself time to go on ten. 109 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:10,000 Although, dear, ten takes up so much of a day that I can't help thinking could be better spent. 110 00:05:10,000 --> 00:05:12,000 You're absolutely right. 111 00:05:12,000 --> 00:05:13,000 Am I? 112 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:16,000 Mark thinks I ought to be contented with my Lord. 113 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:19,000 To all very well for him, safely behind a pile of books at Oxford. 114 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:22,000 Mark does care about us, you know. 115 00:05:22,000 --> 00:05:24,000 When we live up to what he expects of us. 116 00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:31,000 Yes, if it hadn't been for Mark making a great plan for reading and studying, I should be half-witted. 117 00:05:31,000 --> 00:05:36,000 Instead of two-thirds, which is where I hope I've reached in his estimation. 118 00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:38,000 Do you know Rachel? 119 00:05:38,000 --> 00:05:42,000 I thought he'd solved everything when he pointed out how much the brunt is achieved. 120 00:05:42,000 --> 00:05:44,000 Isolated like us. 121 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:48,000 Then I realized I wasn't a genius and it didn't apply. 122 00:05:50,000 --> 00:05:53,000 Oh, I do want to be somebody before it's too late. 123 00:05:53,000 --> 00:05:57,000 Do you know I dreamt again last night that I was in the Crimea with Miss Nightingale? 124 00:05:58,000 --> 00:06:00,000 I was so happy to be there. 125 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:03,000 Nursing, those poor wounded soldiers. 126 00:06:03,000 --> 00:06:09,000 Until suddenly Miss Nightingale was standing over me with the face and the voice of the jailer. 127 00:06:09,000 --> 00:06:14,000 Saying exactly as he did, you would be worse than useless and you have plenty to employ you at home. 128 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:16,000 I woke up. 129 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:19,000 Mother was having a bronchial attack in the next room. 130 00:06:19,000 --> 00:06:21,000 I went in to try to cheer her up a little. 131 00:06:23,000 --> 00:06:25,000 She is so unlovable. 132 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:28,000 Pity is all I feel for her. 133 00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:31,000 And that so grieves me. 134 00:06:31,000 --> 00:06:33,000 I'm talking too much. 135 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:39,000 It's a great treat after the silence at home where no one dare say anything but fear of an explosion. 136 00:06:43,000 --> 00:06:44,000 Look, Mark. 137 00:06:45,000 --> 00:06:48,000 There they are still sitting in silence around the teaket. 138 00:06:49,000 --> 00:06:51,000 Always the same gloom and silence. 139 00:06:52,000 --> 00:06:56,000 Just as it was when we came back from our walks ten years ago. 140 00:06:57,000 --> 00:06:59,000 It makes me so sick at heart. 141 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:02,000 Where have all my hopes gone that things would be better? 142 00:07:03,000 --> 00:07:05,000 Here we are, not the same but worse. 143 00:07:06,000 --> 00:07:07,000 And so much of life already over. 144 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:10,000 It's no good dear girl spending her time in regrets. 145 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:13,000 There's no alternative, you know. 146 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:15,000 So I tell myself. 147 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:20,000 But Mark, you know yourself how difficult it is to keep cheerful when life disappoints you. 148 00:07:21,000 --> 00:07:24,000 You have never reconciled yourself to not getting the rectorship at Lincoln College. 149 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,000 You've never let the ice thaw from your heart. 150 00:07:27,000 --> 00:07:29,000 Yet you know of your patient, you're bound to get it one day. 151 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:31,000 But with us, patience leaves nowhere. 152 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:33,000 Shall we go indoors? 153 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:36,000 Oh Mark, don't be offended. 154 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:39,000 I do want to be worthy of your respect. 155 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:42,000 I count so much on your affection. 156 00:07:44,000 --> 00:07:46,000 Then make a success of what you have, daughter. 157 00:07:47,000 --> 00:07:50,000 Persevere with your reading so that you can share my thoughts and studies. 158 00:07:51,000 --> 00:07:54,000 And in the next long vacation, I'll take on a country parish for a few weeks. 159 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:59,000 Where we can explore and be as contented together as we were at Oxford. 160 00:08:01,000 --> 00:08:05,000 Oh dear Mark, you're very good to me. 161 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:11,000 Now, let's brave the house. 162 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:16,000 Now he has a new way of tormenting us. 163 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:20,000 He won't pay for anything, not even necessary articles of clothing. 164 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:25,000 I feel so ashamed going into the shops in Richmond knowing our bills are unpaid. 165 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:29,000 We are using the cheapest material to make our own things. 166 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:32,000 But how shall we keep warm in the winter? 167 00:08:33,000 --> 00:08:34,000 I've given Mother £10 to help with your pocket money. 168 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:36,000 Oh thank you Mark. 169 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:38,000 Her pride insists on it being alone. 170 00:08:39,000 --> 00:08:40,000 How will she repay you? 171 00:08:41,000 --> 00:08:43,000 Except out of a little bit of capital. 172 00:08:44,000 --> 00:08:46,000 Her purse is in a miserable condition. 173 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:48,000 He gives her nothing. 174 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:51,000 Frank had asked us to visit him in London. 175 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:55,000 That would have been a store of memories to get us through the next long winter. 176 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:58,000 The trunks were packed, the carriage at the door. 177 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:03,000 Then, without warning, it was all cancelled. 178 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:08,000 Since Eleanor's marriage, he vows we shall go nowhere and see no one. 179 00:09:09,000 --> 00:09:10,000 How is it to be born? 180 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:17,000 It is almost impossible to carry on, knowing that the person who should be your protector is your deadliest enemy. 181 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:25,000 The worst horror was when he tried to prevent Eleanor's engagement by spreading around the village that was madness in our family. 182 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:29,000 Oh God, why is this curse inflicted on us? 183 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:34,000 When things get so absurdly frightful, we only hope is to laugh. 184 00:09:35,000 --> 00:09:36,000 Rage is too self-defeating. 185 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:42,000 I could hardly keep a straight face when he sent Eleanor into the kitchen to fetch her bucket and scrubbing brush. 186 00:09:43,000 --> 00:09:48,000 He pointed an awful finger at them and said, there is your diary. There is your future. 187 00:09:50,000 --> 00:09:54,000 I tell you that son of yours brought papery into this house. 188 00:09:55,000 --> 00:09:56,000 I infected my daughters. 189 00:09:57,000 --> 00:10:00,000 My home became a nest of papists. 190 00:10:01,000 --> 00:10:03,000 No, not papists. 191 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:05,000 Am I accused of lying? 192 00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:12,000 He was sadly carried away by enthusiasm for those Oxford friends, Mr. Pusy, Mr. Newman. 193 00:10:14,000 --> 00:10:17,000 But I prayed that he might see the error of his ways and I'm sure he has. 194 00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:20,000 What is he now? A free-thinking churchman? 195 00:10:21,000 --> 00:10:22,000 Not what you invite into my house, is it? 196 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:28,000 First my family destroy me and then the foul of every ground I walk on. 197 00:10:29,000 --> 00:10:31,000 Destroy you. Oh, don't say that. I do! 198 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:33,000 Say it. 199 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:43,000 You let me be taken to a mad house, to the most noisy den, to which a clergyman of the Church of England, 200 00:10:44,000 --> 00:10:47,000 and that clergyman, a gentleman, could have been consigned. 201 00:10:50,000 --> 00:10:56,000 And you were too dainty to enter that loathsome dungeon to visit me. 202 00:10:57,000 --> 00:11:02,000 Not once did you cross that faithful threshold. 203 00:11:04,000 --> 00:11:07,000 You know the doctor said it were not even your good. 204 00:11:09,000 --> 00:11:10,000 It was twenty-four years ago. 205 00:11:11,000 --> 00:11:15,000 No time can blossom from my memory, not if I were to live to the day of doom. 206 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:17,000 By that fateful... 207 00:11:19,000 --> 00:11:23,000 ...fatal step, I was deprived of every prospect in life. 208 00:11:25,000 --> 00:11:29,000 And now I have to endure the undutifulness of a perverse, unregenerate family. 209 00:11:29,000 --> 00:11:32,000 Oh dear, it's another storm! 210 00:11:33,000 --> 00:11:35,000 One of your children has been... 211 00:11:36,000 --> 00:11:40,000 Oh dear, father is not angry with you. 212 00:11:41,000 --> 00:11:43,000 I have prayed the time, my people. 213 00:11:44,000 --> 00:11:45,000 I have prayed the time, my people. 214 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:48,000 I prayed, prayed, while you prayed to small purpose. 215 00:11:49,000 --> 00:11:51,000 Two of your daughters marry like fools. 216 00:11:52,000 --> 00:11:55,000 Your younger son spurns his home and departs for the Babylon of London. 217 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:59,000 Your eldest son contaminates the house. 218 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:03,000 And you take it upon yourself to criticize me for disinheriting them. 219 00:12:04,000 --> 00:12:06,000 No, no, no, no. I only asked if you thought it was right. 220 00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:10,000 Now that Ellen has a young family and Rachel has started one day... 221 00:12:11,000 --> 00:12:13,000 They've fetched my authority and take the consequences. 222 00:12:21,000 --> 00:12:23,000 Have you done what I said? Have you altered your will? 223 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:28,000 Am I talking to a mule answer me? 224 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:33,000 Deny, if you care that you're sitting there with mutinous thoughts... 225 00:12:35,000 --> 00:12:39,000 You'll do as I say. You'll disinherit them. 226 00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:42,000 Do you understand what I'm saying to you? 227 00:12:44,000 --> 00:12:46,000 I understand what you're saying to me. 228 00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:48,000 Then act upon it. 229 00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:51,000 I'll carry the consequences for the rest of your life. 230 00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:58,000 It's all over. For the present? 231 00:12:59,000 --> 00:13:03,000 Is it gone? I'd like to know which daughter had it passed. 232 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:07,000 I think he went into the study. Another will be having a little weep. 233 00:13:07,000 --> 00:13:10,000 I wish I could coat her without making her worse. 234 00:13:11,000 --> 00:13:16,000 You can't. She takes a word of sympathy as blessed for me against our lord and master. 235 00:13:17,000 --> 00:13:21,000 Is she only a care force independent of what he thought? 236 00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:26,000 How we should love her. But she doesn't care a job for us. 237 00:13:27,000 --> 00:13:29,000 I don't know what she's saying to her. 238 00:13:30,000 --> 00:13:32,000 I don't know what she's saying to her. 239 00:13:32,000 --> 00:13:36,000 How we should love her. But she doesn't care a job for us. 240 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:43,000 You have to reconcile yourselves to living your lives without the help of a parent parental affliction. 241 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:47,000 Your happiness must depend on what you create within you. 242 00:13:48,000 --> 00:13:53,000 I've often told you the ordering of our individual conduct is what we have to attend to. You'll be tired of hearing it. 243 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:55,000 Yes, we are a little. 244 00:13:56,000 --> 00:14:04,000 Mark. I trust your warnings of not being thrown away. But the task is very, very difficult. 245 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:08,000 We're right and wrong, affixed only by a tyrannical will. 246 00:14:09,000 --> 00:14:15,000 You must have seen what is happening to Anna. And now if it's any little destroyed, she gets worse and worse. We do everything for her. 247 00:14:16,000 --> 00:14:24,000 Mark, you give me a few minutes, my dear. It's a little... business matter I want to talk over with you. 248 00:14:26,000 --> 00:14:28,000 Yes, of course, Father. 249 00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:38,000 A little business matter. Behind the jail is back. 250 00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:40,000 Oh, no. Change the... 251 00:14:45,000 --> 00:14:47,000 She looks so pale and shrunken. 252 00:14:48,000 --> 00:14:51,000 If only we could put our arms round her and comfort her. 253 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:54,000 But you don't need flinch. 254 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:57,000 As though it's strucker. 255 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:05,000 The door, my dear. 256 00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:17,000 As you are the trustee of my little capital, I want you to be clear about my wishes when I pass over. 257 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:27,000 It pains me to oppose your father and has cost me many weeks of prayer. 258 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:34,000 But I must not distinguish unjustly between the girls. It must be share and share alike with them. 259 00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:37,000 However much it offends him. 260 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:41,000 I must not weaken. 261 00:15:42,000 --> 00:15:46,000 I fully support you, my dear mother. You are quite in the right. 262 00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:48,000 I trust and think so. 263 00:15:49,000 --> 00:16:02,000 And mother, while we are talking together, if you would only show the girls a little more understanding at other times, let them see you sympathize when they suffer from father's irrational behavior. 264 00:16:03,000 --> 00:16:13,000 How can you say such a thing of your own father and the representative among us of God's holy will? 265 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:18,000 This is yet another bitter drop in the cup, which it is pleased my heavenly father to give me. 266 00:16:19,000 --> 00:16:21,000 I am very sorry of what I say, upset you. 267 00:16:21,000 --> 00:16:24,000 This disunity in our sad family is so hard to bear. 268 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:27,000 And why must I carry the blame? 269 00:16:28,000 --> 00:16:30,000 The girls never confide in me. 270 00:16:31,000 --> 00:16:36,000 And I'm sure Dora cares more for the headmaster's family at Richmond than she does for her own. 271 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:41,000 I dare not let your father know how often she visits there. 272 00:16:43,000 --> 00:16:47,000 The tapes encourage her to depend too much upon worldly things. 273 00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:49,000 Forgetful of her duty. 274 00:16:51,000 --> 00:16:53,000 I can hardly sleep or worry. 275 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:59,000 Praying that she may be guided in all her ways by that spirit which cannot her. 276 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:03,000 And Herakai's joy to the elders, little darf! 277 00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:09,000 You are the spirit, the right horse, the right man, and the all in the way with the family clues! 278 00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:12,000 You have to look for your father's chains. 279 00:17:13,000 --> 00:17:15,000 You've got quite a rival story today in this cactus. 280 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:18,000 Didn't she tell the story well? 281 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:22,000 She deserves a prize and she should have won. 282 00:17:23,000 --> 00:17:24,000 Oh, really Mrs. T, I couldn't. 283 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:26,000 My mother only warned to give you a daughter. 284 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:27,000 She wants you to have her. 285 00:17:28,000 --> 00:17:30,000 Oh, you've given me so much happiness already. 286 00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:32,000 It isn't fair. 287 00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:35,000 Think of all you did for us at the opening of the new school building. 288 00:17:35,000 --> 00:17:39,000 Hanging with her aldic banners, making the garlands? 289 00:17:39,000 --> 00:17:41,000 No, you should be garlanding. 290 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:43,000 It's a little thunderstand, can I take? 291 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:46,000 It was like the on a high plateau to me to have any part in it. 292 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:49,000 The sapper is on the table. 293 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:51,000 When you are a car, I'm quite a jolly! 294 00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:01,000 Oh, James, I do love your family. I love them deals. 295 00:18:01,000 --> 00:18:03,000 You're also a thunder woman. 296 00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:05,000 Yes, and of you two, Dora. You know that, don't you? 297 00:18:05,000 --> 00:18:06,000 That makes it even better. 298 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:09,000 That can be your own family, you know. If you like me well enough. 299 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:10,000 I wish you well. 300 00:18:11,000 --> 00:18:12,000 Say you will marry me, Dora. 301 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:14,000 I love you very much. 302 00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:17,000 And it does seem right that you showed it. 303 00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:19,000 Wouldn't that be the answer to everything? 304 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:21,000 In a way, yes, it would. 305 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:23,000 Only in a way. 306 00:18:24,000 --> 00:18:25,000 You'd have to want it very doggy, James. 307 00:18:25,000 --> 00:18:28,000 We'd have to be very heroic and steadfast to stand up to my father. 308 00:18:28,000 --> 00:18:29,000 Hi. 309 00:18:29,000 --> 00:18:30,000 Dora, anything for you, Dora? 310 00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:35,000 Well, Em, this is going to suffer. We've strong hands. 311 00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:00,000 Come in. 312 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:09,000 Ah, it's you, Mr. James Tate. 313 00:19:10,000 --> 00:19:11,000 Good evening, sir. 314 00:19:16,000 --> 00:19:18,000 It's kind of you to wish to see me. 315 00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:22,000 There's neither kind nor unkind of me, neither do I particularly wish it. 316 00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:25,000 Circumstances have arisen which required it. 317 00:19:25,000 --> 00:19:27,000 Also, I am led to suppose. 318 00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:33,000 As a friend of my family, I offer you my hand. I offer you a chair. 319 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:35,000 I offer you my attention. 320 00:19:40,000 --> 00:19:41,000 What does it have to say? 321 00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:52,000 Sir, I am a friend of your family. 322 00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:54,000 Particularly, I have a special concern. 323 00:19:59,000 --> 00:20:01,000 I love your daughter, Dora, sir. 324 00:20:02,000 --> 00:20:04,000 May I ask your permission to marry her? 325 00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:08,000 You may ask for it, but not have it. 326 00:20:09,000 --> 00:20:11,000 I'm not usually considered an imprudent man. 327 00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:13,000 You evidently think so. 328 00:20:14,000 --> 00:20:16,000 No, sir. You contradict me. 329 00:20:17,000 --> 00:20:19,000 Oh, what grounds? 330 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:22,000 I have been given a curacy, Mr. Paterson. 331 00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:27,000 With 50 or 100 pounds a year, you'll not be a burden on the parish. 332 00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:29,000 I'm thankful to hear it. 333 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:31,000 Sir, with economy. 334 00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:35,000 With economy, you can keep yourself in boots. 335 00:20:36,000 --> 00:20:38,000 Well, that is all we have to say to each other. 336 00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:46,000 May I hope for the future? 337 00:20:47,000 --> 00:20:50,000 By that time, I shall be beyond the reach of frivolous questions. 338 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:54,000 Until then, I must ask you not to enter this house again. 339 00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:57,000 Sir, the toke up over the threshold. 340 00:20:58,000 --> 00:20:59,000 But your peril. Do you hear me? 341 00:21:03,000 --> 00:21:05,000 I'm very sorry to hear you, sir. 342 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:11,000 Very sorry. 343 00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:13,000 Good evening, Mr. James Tate. 344 00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:17,000 I'm sorry. 345 00:21:29,000 --> 00:21:30,000 What else did you say? 346 00:21:31,000 --> 00:21:34,000 Well, nothing. Nothing else that I can remember. 347 00:21:35,000 --> 00:21:36,000 But you do remember. It's not very memorable. 348 00:21:37,000 --> 00:21:38,000 I suppose not. 349 00:21:39,000 --> 00:21:40,000 Whatever I said, he wouldn't have listened. 350 00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:43,000 But I would. And of admired every word of it. 351 00:21:44,000 --> 00:21:45,000 Would a pity I can't? 352 00:21:46,000 --> 00:21:47,000 Dora, you're being unfair. 353 00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:53,000 After all is your father, it could have been fearfully ill-mannered to set myself up against it. 354 00:21:54,000 --> 00:21:55,000 Yes, your manhood. 355 00:21:55,000 --> 00:21:56,000 Well, wouldn't it? 356 00:21:57,000 --> 00:21:58,000 Strong parents find their own cause. 357 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:01,000 And deep feelings, their own good manners. 358 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:03,000 I should have thought. 359 00:22:10,000 --> 00:22:11,000 I'm sorry I've disappointed you. 360 00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:14,000 I'm sorry I ask so much. 361 00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:17,000 In our hearts, we know it makes no difference. 362 00:22:17,000 --> 00:22:19,000 I don't know at the moment. What's in my heart? 363 00:22:19,000 --> 00:22:21,000 Or even if I have one? You'd better not count on it. 364 00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:23,000 Something inside me is wasting away. 365 00:22:24,000 --> 00:22:28,000 What's the point of pretending we have an understanding when there's still so much to be understood? 366 00:22:29,000 --> 00:22:30,000 Don't say that, Dora. 367 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:35,000 I'm sorry. 368 00:22:36,000 --> 00:22:37,000 I know I'm being pretty. 369 00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:41,000 You'd better leave me to walk myself into a little frame of mind. 370 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,000 You know I'm going to stay with Mark in Worcestershire. 371 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:46,000 How long will you be away? 372 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:48,000 Two or three weeks. 373 00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:53,000 And I hope when I return you can look forward to meeting a more reasonable person. 374 00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:57,000 That's what I shall try to be at any rate. 375 00:22:58,000 --> 00:23:03,000 Dear James, I really don't mean to hurt you. 376 00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:14,000 I'm sorry. 377 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:45,000 She seems so contented. 378 00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:48,000 It's such a shame. 379 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:50,000 But we must write and warn her of mother's condition. 380 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,000 She wouldn't thank us if we didn't let her know. 381 00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:15,000 We've had a letter from Dora at night, Wigfanny. 382 00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:19,000 Mark has hired a pony for her and she's been riding on the Morven hills. 383 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:21,000 But read it for yourself. 384 00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:23,000 No. 385 00:24:24,000 --> 00:24:25,000 I don't think I want to. 386 00:24:26,000 --> 00:24:28,000 Why not, Fanny? It's as much for you as it is for us. 387 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,000 I mustn't be in their thoughts. 388 00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:34,000 I shouldn't be if they knew. 389 00:24:35,000 --> 00:24:36,000 You knew what, Fanny. 390 00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:39,000 The evil in me. 391 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:41,000 Oh, Fanny, dear. 392 00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:42,000 Don't touch me. 393 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:44,000 Keep your hands clean. 394 00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:53,000 Mark? 395 00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:57,000 Dear, what's the matter? 396 00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:00,000 No matter? 397 00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:03,000 Well, aren't you a little frosty for a warm day? 398 00:25:04,000 --> 00:25:05,000 I admit I'm disappointed. 399 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:07,000 With me. 400 00:25:11,000 --> 00:25:14,000 I thought you would find it idyllic here in a country side you'd never visited before. 401 00:25:15,000 --> 00:25:16,000 And so I do. 402 00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:18,000 I had to look forward to having your... 403 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:19,000 ...close affection. 404 00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:21,000 As I had when you came to Oxford. 405 00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:24,000 God knows there's a little enough to become mine. 406 00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:26,000 I can't do it on it. 407 00:25:26,000 --> 00:25:27,000 But you have it, Mark. 408 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:30,000 I love being here with you. I love it. 409 00:25:31,000 --> 00:25:33,000 And I'm so grateful for all that you've given me. 410 00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:35,000 But restless. 411 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,000 Not contented. 412 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:42,000 Foolish to have expected anything else with your head full of young, tatant marriage. 413 00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:45,000 This whole project was quite mistaken. 414 00:25:46,000 --> 00:25:47,000 Oh, no, that's utterly untrue. 415 00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,000 I wanted this time with you more than anything. 416 00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:52,000 And I still do. 417 00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:54,000 But I am so anxious about mine. 418 00:25:56,000 --> 00:25:57,000 Oh, why? 419 00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:01,000 Well, I was afraid you might pause going on me if I told you. 420 00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:04,000 But I've dreamt about her. 421 00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:06,000 And it's so frightening. 422 00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,000 Last night, in the night before, both times, I saw her. 423 00:26:11,000 --> 00:26:13,000 She drew back the bed curtains and she called me. 424 00:26:14,000 --> 00:26:15,000 Dora. 425 00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:17,000 Dora, Dora. 426 00:26:19,000 --> 00:26:22,000 And I can't help thinking what they say in the dales about the dying. 427 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:25,000 Calling out on the eve of St Mark. 428 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:31,000 What superstitious total. 429 00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:34,000 But last night it was more urgent still. 430 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:36,000 Well, are you a child? 431 00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:41,000 You should grow out of such absurd uneducated notions. 432 00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:44,000 I should. 433 00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:46,000 But I haven't. 434 00:26:47,000 --> 00:26:52,000 And it wouldn't be absurd to go into Worcester, would it, Mark, to collect our letters? 435 00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:55,000 You mean me in that? 436 00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:03,000 Is there anything you want? 437 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:06,000 I've asked you for two things. 438 00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:08,000 To see Mark. 439 00:27:10,000 --> 00:27:12,000 To receive Holy Communion. 440 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,000 You've refused me both. 441 00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:19,000 You refuse them yourself by your own obstinacy. 442 00:27:23,000 --> 00:27:26,000 Are you going to alter your will at my dictation, or are you not? 443 00:27:29,000 --> 00:27:30,000 Then expect nothing but retribution. 444 00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:35,000 I cannot administer to a sinner who breaks her marriage vows of obedience and is under-attentant. 445 00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:38,000 I cannot, and I will not. 446 00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:51,000 I'm home, mother. I've come to nurse you. 447 00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:57,000 It's been a dark day with me. Give me a hand. 448 00:27:57,000 --> 00:28:01,000 Oh, poor little mother. I'm so glad you asked her. 449 00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:03,000 No. 450 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:06,000 It's trusting too much to an arm of flesh. 451 00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:11,000 Oh, please, for my sake. I so want your hand in mine. 452 00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:14,000 I must trust in my God alone. 453 00:28:16,000 --> 00:28:20,000 But God has given me to you to help you the little I can. 454 00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:24,000 My poor girls. 455 00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:26,000 My dear children. 456 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:34,000 It has been a long struggle, but now it is over. 457 00:28:36,000 --> 00:28:40,000 Her sufferings were so great, and one felt so powerless to help. 458 00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:45,000 Our father never entered her room the last two days. 459 00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:48,000 But she never asked for him. 460 00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:52,000 So this last neglect caused her no pain. 461 00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:57,000 The Lord has taken your God-blaut to see the new Lamb. 462 00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:59,000 They'll be back before long. 463 00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:02,000 But I wanted a little time alone with you. 464 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:04,000 You're not pleased with me. 465 00:29:05,000 --> 00:29:06,000 No one is. 466 00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:09,000 I'm even less pleased with myself. 467 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:11,000 We can't make you out. 468 00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:14,000 Mark keeps writing to ask what is going on. 469 00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,000 In the last letter, he accused me of concealing things from him. 470 00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:21,000 But I can't tell him what I don't know. 471 00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:26,000 All I could say was that I feared things weren't going smoothly between you and James. 472 00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:31,000 When I spoke to you about the coming marriage, you were distressed and avoided the subject. 473 00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:34,000 He's so hurt that you hadn't confided in him. 474 00:29:35,000 --> 00:29:37,000 And blames you. That grieves me very much. 475 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:39,000 I shall write and tell him so. 476 00:29:40,000 --> 00:29:44,000 Although he hasn't answered any of my letters since I chided him about not attending Mother's funeral. 477 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,000 That affection means so much to me. 478 00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:52,000 And I make such a hatch of it. 479 00:29:54,000 --> 00:29:57,000 Rachel, I've... I've written to James. 480 00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:01,000 I've told him I can't marry him. 481 00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:04,000 Poor James! 482 00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:06,000 Yes, poor James. 483 00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:08,000 I'm fearfully to blame. 484 00:30:09,000 --> 00:30:11,000 The dates have been so good to me. 485 00:30:12,000 --> 00:30:14,000 Now they won't want to hear my name mentioned again. 486 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:18,000 I'm so lost trying to follow the path you take. 487 00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:20,000 What goes on in you? 488 00:30:22,000 --> 00:30:24,000 You know how fond I am of purchase. 489 00:30:26,000 --> 00:30:27,000 Yes. 490 00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:30,000 I do. 491 00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:34,000 I watch you many more. 492 00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:38,000 I feel the movement almost. 493 00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:41,000 So I know. 494 00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:42,000 I know. 495 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:45,000 So I can't sleep. 496 00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:49,000 When he smiles or laughs, 497 00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:51,000 even in the slightest way, 498 00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:54,000 I want to keep it to myself. 499 00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:58,000 I like the look of him. 500 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,000 Most...dramly. 501 00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:06,000 So I lost sight of James. 502 00:31:07,000 --> 00:31:08,000 Not all together. 503 00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:10,000 But someone. 504 00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:15,000 That wouldn't do. 505 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:16,000 Indeed not. 506 00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:18,000 None of it will dora. 507 00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:23,000 Unless you realize how cruel you are using purchase. 508 00:31:25,000 --> 00:31:27,000 He has loved you deeply all these years. 509 00:31:28,000 --> 00:31:30,000 You gave him some cause for hope. 510 00:31:31,000 --> 00:31:33,000 And then suddenly you engage yourself to James. 511 00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:36,000 Yet even then you made so much of purchase. 512 00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:38,000 How can he bear it? 513 00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:40,000 You mustn't. 514 00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:44,000 You must not give purchase hope again. 515 00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:47,000 Unless you mean to marry him. 516 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,000 I'm going to start my life all over again. 517 00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:58,000 My fault has been that wherever the sunlight struck the water, 518 00:31:58,000 --> 00:32:00,000 I plunged him without any consideration. 519 00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:05,000 It struck here with you. 520 00:32:06,000 --> 00:32:07,000 You and Robert. 521 00:32:09,000 --> 00:32:10,000 And purchase. 522 00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:14,000 But there's a warning in the brightness of it. 523 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:18,000 That tells me I must not be here. 524 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:24,000 I've made up my mind to leave Huxwell. 525 00:32:25,000 --> 00:32:26,000 I make my own way. 526 00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:28,000 Leave Huxwell. 527 00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:32,000 I've applied for a teaching post in a village in Buckinghamshire. 528 00:32:33,000 --> 00:32:35,000 I've invested 70 pounds of mother's money. 529 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:38,000 She'll tide me over till I get my first earnings. 530 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,000 What a proud day that will be. 531 00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:45,000 I can hear what Mark would say. 532 00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:51,000 What nonsense that silly girl trying to teach others when she knows nothing herself. 533 00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:55,000 But I weighed my powers. 534 00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:58,000 I like teaching. 535 00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:01,000 I think I can do it. 536 00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:07,000 I'm going to do it. 537 00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:18,000 Good morning, Miss Madison. 538 00:33:19,000 --> 00:33:20,000 Good morning, Mr. Hill. 539 00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:22,000 Are you managing all right? 540 00:33:23,000 --> 00:33:24,000 I hope the children aren't bothering you. 541 00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:26,000 Oh, good day. My family. 542 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:29,000 And Billy here is worth a brigade. 543 00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:31,000 We shall soon be ship shaped. 544 00:33:32,000 --> 00:33:35,000 I have brought a copy of the Education Committee's report, 545 00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:39,000 which I thought may guide you a little. 546 00:33:40,000 --> 00:33:41,000 I've marked a passage. 547 00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:43,000 It sums up quite succinctly. 548 00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:45,000 Perhaps I may read it to you. 549 00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:48,000 Billy, will you put my people from the dress I can't leave from? 550 00:33:49,000 --> 00:33:50,000 Yes, here it is. 551 00:33:51,000 --> 00:33:57,000 It is quite possible to teach a child all that he needs to know by the time he is ten years old. 552 00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:01,000 He shall read a paragraph in a newspaper with sufficient ease. 553 00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:04,000 If gone to live at a distance from home, 554 00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:08,000 he shall write his mother a letter that should be legible and intelligible. 555 00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:13,000 He shall know enough of ciphering to make out a common shop bill. 556 00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:17,000 This being all that is necessary. 557 00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:19,000 All of is necessary. 558 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,000 And to learn his catechism, of course, 559 00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:26,000 and to be able to follow a plain sermon. 560 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:29,000 But I won't bother you with it now. 561 00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:31,000 I shall leave it here on the table. 562 00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:33,000 Until tomorrow morning, then. 563 00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:35,000 Thank you. 564 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:43,000 I think we can do better than that. 565 00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:45,000 Don't you, Billy? 566 00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:48,000 Yes, we can. 567 00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:51,000 Dear is Rachel. 568 00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:54,000 It's a long time since I wrote to you. 569 00:34:55,000 --> 00:34:57,000 It's not easy to have a quiet hour to myself. 570 00:34:58,000 --> 00:34:59,000 And I'm happy it is so. 571 00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:02,000 For I want to use all the talents God has given me in his service. 572 00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:06,000 The children come running to school now as though to a family party. 573 00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:09,000 Secretly the very little ones are my favorites. 574 00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:13,000 They listen so big-eyed to my stories, endlessly interested. 575 00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:16,000 It keeps my imagination at full stretch. 576 00:35:17,000 --> 00:35:19,000 The big girls too are so touching. 577 00:35:20,000 --> 00:35:22,000 My arms quite ache with brushing their tangled hair. 578 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:26,000 And at night there is plenty of nursing to do. 579 00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:29,000 Wage is too low for doctors' bills. 580 00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:32,000 There's no chemis shock nearer than Newport Paddnall, so they send for me. 581 00:35:34,000 --> 00:35:35,000 I wish I knew more. 582 00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:37,000 But I learned from experience. 583 00:35:38,000 --> 00:35:41,000 Rachel, my little silver teapot has gone. 584 00:35:42,000 --> 00:35:44,000 I'd been out sitting with a man in the village who was dangerously ill. 585 00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:46,000 He died about midnight. 586 00:35:47,000 --> 00:35:50,000 I laid out the body and walked home through the fields about two in the morning. 587 00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:55,000 I saw light burning in my kitchen, picked up my skirts and ran, 588 00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:56,000 burst open the door. 589 00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:59,000 But a tram could come begging earlier in the day, 590 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:03,000 escaped through the school room window with my teapot. 591 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:07,000 It tells me I must not get fond of possessions, 592 00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:10,000 though people get taken away too. 593 00:36:12,000 --> 00:36:15,000 And I can't cure myself of loving people. 594 00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:29,000 Dear Dora, Fanny has been seriously ill, 595 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:33,000 and alas it is not bodily illness but mental. 596 00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:37,000 She became convinced she had committed a dreadful crime 597 00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:43,000 and must escape from the house and hide where she could no longer bring disgrace on her family. 598 00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:46,000 She believed Mark would never forgive her. 599 00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:48,000 She wouldn't eat or drink, 600 00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:50,000 but she would never be able to eat. 601 00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:52,000 She believed Mark would never forgive her. 602 00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:54,000 She wouldn't eat or drink, 603 00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:56,000 except penitential bread and water, 604 00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:58,000 nor permit anyone to touch her. 605 00:36:59,000 --> 00:37:07,000 She insisted she was impure and accused herself of having improper communication with Frank. 606 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:11,000 In her agony of mind, she threatened to destroy herself. 607 00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:18,000 She is under the care of Dr. Forbes Winslow at the Sussex House Asylum, Hammersmith, 608 00:37:18,000 --> 00:37:23,000 and already, thank God, is showing great improvement. 609 00:37:48,000 --> 00:37:56,000 I blame myself for your pleurisy, Miss Patterson. 610 00:37:57,000 --> 00:37:59,000 I should have taken your cold more seriously. 611 00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:03,000 I remember telling you not to give away, but I was thinking of the children. 612 00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:05,000 I regret that I said it. 613 00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:08,000 You need not, Mr. Hill. I had no intention of getting away. 614 00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:11,000 I was soon aware of that, my dear, to my dismay. 615 00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:13,000 It was fine foolishness. 616 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:15,000 Going out in the night's nursing and old weathers, 617 00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:19,000 three miles and back through shopping fields with a coffee-barker dog out of his skin. 618 00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:21,000 We shall pack her off on our holidays. 619 00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,000 When we miss her as soon as she is well enough to make the journey. 620 00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:26,000 She must have her holiday. 621 00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:28,000 There it will be fasting and praying time until she is back. 622 00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:30,000 Glad as we shall be to think of her resting. 623 00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,000 You will be sure you go, Miss. 624 00:38:33,000 --> 00:38:34,000 Yes, I will. 625 00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:38,000 Even though when I was reading just now, I was already halfway to a fishing village, 626 00:38:39,000 --> 00:38:41,000 where I had my first sight and sound of the sea. 627 00:38:41,000 --> 00:38:43,000 It seemed so apt. Where is it now? 628 00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:50,000 Hence in a season of calm weather, though inland far we be, 629 00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:55,000 our souls have sight of that immortal sea which brought us hither, 630 00:38:56,000 --> 00:39:01,000 can in a moment travel hither, and see the children's fort upon us sure. 631 00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:04,000 And hear the mighty waters burning evermore. 632 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:12,000 Don. 633 00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:19,000 She ain't. 634 00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:21,000 I couldn't believe my eyes. 635 00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:25,000 I thought you were far away in Buckinghamshire. 636 00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:28,000 I've been given a holiday, and we're better than hearing Coughton. 637 00:39:31,000 --> 00:39:33,000 It was only by chance I walked over from Mars today. 638 00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:35,000 You know I have a living there. 639 00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:37,000 Or was it a guiding providence? 640 00:39:38,000 --> 00:39:39,000 I'm glad, whichever it was. 641 00:39:40,000 --> 00:39:42,000 Conversation with the sea was beginning to pour a little. 642 00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:44,000 Weights lose something of their wit in November, 643 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:47,000 which is why I was bold and talked to those nuns over there. 644 00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:50,000 I was asking them about their hospital in North Ormsby, 645 00:39:51,000 --> 00:39:52,000 and they're going to show me the convalescent home here. 646 00:39:53,000 --> 00:39:54,000 And already a little empty, some. 647 00:39:55,000 --> 00:39:56,000 Will you come over to Mars and see my church? 648 00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:58,000 Take a look at the parish. 649 00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:00,000 I'm going to see the church. 650 00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:02,000 I'm going to see the church. 651 00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:03,000 Come over to Mars and see my church. 652 00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:05,000 Take a look at the parish. 653 00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:07,000 All farmers and fishermen. 654 00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:09,000 I can borrow a pony trap and drive you over. 655 00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:11,000 Will you do that? 656 00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:14,000 I'd love to. 657 00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:16,000 Where are you staying? 658 00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:18,000 Well, with a nice Mrs. Clegg, who causes me like a teapot. 659 00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:21,000 In fact, the pot of tea is waiting for me now. 660 00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:24,000 If you care to join. 661 00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:26,000 I would. 662 00:40:26,000 --> 00:40:27,000 Very much. 663 00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:31,000 Are you happy? 664 00:40:32,000 --> 00:40:33,000 Little Austin. 665 00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:35,000 Is it the life you want, Dora? 666 00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:38,000 You'll never loan me. 667 00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:44,000 It troubles me to think of you alone in that cottage. 668 00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:47,000 Being ill so far away from home. 669 00:40:48,000 --> 00:40:50,000 Tramps climbing in and out of your windows. 670 00:40:51,000 --> 00:40:52,000 One tramp, one window. 671 00:40:53,000 --> 00:40:54,000 You may laugh at troubles, we all say. 672 00:40:57,000 --> 00:40:58,000 We're very considerate gentle. 673 00:40:59,000 --> 00:41:00,000 Tender person, James. 674 00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:02,000 No, it's just the... 675 00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:09,000 Do you have to go back so soon? Do you have to go back at all? 676 00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:13,000 Yes, I have to go back. Of course I do. 677 00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:17,000 I'm very reluctant to let you go. 678 00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:20,000 I'm so fond of you, James. You don't backroaches. 679 00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:31,000 But only we could spend more time together. 680 00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:34,000 We only have ten days of whatever time you can spare. 681 00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:39,000 They shall all be do-a-days for me if you have them so. 682 00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:43,000 Nothing they'll know with it shall come in the way of lies. 683 00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:51,000 I hadn't realized. 684 00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:56,000 Heaven knows I wouldn't want to distress you. 685 00:41:59,000 --> 00:42:02,000 It hadn't ended my head that you'd be so upset. 686 00:42:03,000 --> 00:42:06,000 It would never, never, never do. 687 00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:09,000 I'm afraid your mother is right, James. 688 00:42:10,000 --> 00:42:11,000 It is well over and done with. 689 00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:14,000 And there it should have been left. 690 00:42:15,000 --> 00:42:17,000 Surely you've been hurt enough by the girl. 691 00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:20,000 I dread to think I might end. 692 00:42:21,000 --> 00:42:23,000 You were both very fond of her at one time. 693 00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:25,000 Not out of the way she treated you. 694 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:27,000 But that isn't the only thing. 695 00:42:28,000 --> 00:42:30,000 Would you have me treat her in the same way? 696 00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:33,000 Is her father sane? 697 00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:36,000 No. 698 00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:38,000 Not always. 699 00:42:39,000 --> 00:42:40,000 At least at one time he was not. 700 00:42:41,000 --> 00:42:43,000 And you know her sister Fanny was put into an asylum. 701 00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:46,000 Threatening to do away with her sister. 702 00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:49,000 He's not so now. She's quite recovered. 703 00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:52,000 And I'm not asking to marry Fanny. 704 00:42:53,000 --> 00:42:56,000 You are asking your children to share that family's blood. 705 00:42:57,000 --> 00:42:59,000 And I'm not at all sure that Dora herself. 706 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:01,000 The really. 707 00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:04,000 That's monstrous. 708 00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:07,000 We are very afraid for you, James. 709 00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:09,000 The kind of impulsiveness. 710 00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:12,000 That quick excitement she has. 711 00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:17,000 She has a lack of balance that will give me no rest to the end of my days. 712 00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:26,000 Have you really weighed deeply the chances of happiness? 713 00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:29,000 The life ahead or both of you? 714 00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:32,000 I thought I had. 715 00:43:34,000 --> 00:43:36,000 But I couldn't be happy without your blessing. 716 00:43:38,000 --> 00:43:40,000 Well, knowing that I had failed in duty. 717 00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:46,000 Or brought the least shadow of trouble to the dearest of parents. 718 00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:50,000 We may not have so many more years together. 719 00:43:53,000 --> 00:43:55,000 I will write to her. 720 00:43:56,000 --> 00:43:57,000 God bless you, my boy. 721 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:00,000 As he will. 722 00:44:01,000 --> 00:44:05,000 I'm quite certain you will find such rewards. 723 00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:15,000 I will write to her. 724 00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:23,000 I will write to her. 725 00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:42,000 Come in. 726 00:44:47,000 --> 00:44:48,000 Good morning, Mr. Hill. 727 00:44:48,000 --> 00:44:50,000 Good morning, Miss Patterson. 728 00:44:51,000 --> 00:44:53,000 A sad one for your leaving us. 729 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:56,000 I can tell you the whole village has a moist eye. 730 00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,000 Many of the children are openly in tears. 731 00:45:00,000 --> 00:45:03,000 My roots aren't coming away easily either. I shall miss them hugely. 732 00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:07,000 You cheer ourselves with the thought of your future happiness. 733 00:45:08,000 --> 00:45:10,000 I understand your leaving us to get married. 734 00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:12,000 Sit down, Mr. Hill. 735 00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:13,000 Yes, I thought when I gave in my notice. 736 00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:19,000 Do you remember one saying that you thought the nursing I was able to do here meant as much to me? 737 00:45:20,000 --> 00:45:21,000 Or even more than teaching the children? 738 00:45:22,000 --> 00:45:24,000 I am not going to get married, Mr. Hill. 739 00:45:25,000 --> 00:45:26,000 You are not? 740 00:45:26,000 --> 00:45:29,000 Only to another way of life, which I trust, which I truly believe is the right one. 741 00:45:30,000 --> 00:45:34,000 My sister Fami has joined a nursing sisterhood in Yorkshire, and I intend to do likewise. 742 00:45:35,000 --> 00:45:36,000 To be a nun. 743 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:39,000 It's an Anglican order, Mr. Hill. Don't be shocked. 744 00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:43,000 It's taken me a long time to realize what was always so clear. 745 00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:46,000 The place I was meant to fill. 746 00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:51,000 With a single eye to God's service, my whole heart, given to God. 747 00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:59,000 And I must confess, I am more than a little attracted by the bonnets and offices. 748 00:46:09,000 --> 00:46:12,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 749 00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:13,000 children. 750 00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:17,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 751 00:46:17,000 --> 00:46:18,000 children. 752 00:46:18,000 --> 00:46:20,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 753 00:46:20,000 --> 00:46:21,000 children. 754 00:46:21,000 --> 00:46:24,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 755 00:46:24,000 --> 00:46:25,000 children. 756 00:46:25,000 --> 00:46:28,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 757 00:46:28,000 --> 00:46:29,000 children. 758 00:46:29,000 --> 00:46:32,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 759 00:46:32,000 --> 00:46:33,000 children. 760 00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:36,000 I am not going to be a little attracted by the 761 00:46:36,000 --> 00:46:37,000 children. 762 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:46,000 No sister, that's not how it's meant to be. We must begin again. 763 00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:53,000 Now my dear, don't get as hot and that we'll never do. 764 00:46:54,000 --> 00:46:56,000 The point is, will I ever really do? 765 00:46:57,000 --> 00:46:58,000 Why ever not? 766 00:47:00,000 --> 00:47:01,000 Yes. 767 00:47:02,000 --> 00:47:03,000 Why ever not? 768 00:47:03,000 --> 00:47:04,000 Why ever not? 769 00:47:05,000 --> 00:47:06,000 I'll start again. 770 00:47:21,000 --> 00:47:22,000 Has anyone noticed? 771 00:47:23,000 --> 00:47:24,000 Noticed what? 772 00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:26,000 I am wearing my bedroom slippers. 773 00:47:27,000 --> 00:47:28,000 I have lost the shoe. 774 00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:29,000 You can't have lost it. 775 00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:31,000 Yes, I do. 776 00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:36,000 I slipped out at night without permission. 777 00:47:36,000 --> 00:47:38,000 Just to get one breath of the sea. 778 00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:41,000 And a drunk man shouted at me, I am coming to get you. 779 00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:42,000 Me the crap form. 780 00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:45,000 I took to my heels, but one of them stuck in the wet 781 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:47,000 sand and my sure-good left behind. 782 00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:51,000 You suppose I ought to confess it? 783 00:47:51,000 --> 00:47:53,000 It's not a very serious crime. 784 00:47:54,000 --> 00:47:55,000 But that isn't all. 785 00:47:56,000 --> 00:47:58,000 I find it very painful to pray. 786 00:47:59,000 --> 00:48:00,000 To pray Dora. 787 00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:02,000 Painful. 788 00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:05,000 Well, I could never confess this. 789 00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:08,000 The sisters in the chaplain would be horrified. 790 00:48:10,000 --> 00:48:12,000 You know that large handsome donkey on the shore, 791 00:48:13,000 --> 00:48:16,000 but has a reputation for bucking anyone that tries to get on him. 792 00:48:17,000 --> 00:48:19,000 Well, I asked the donkey man to let me have a try. 793 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:21,000 I'm sure I could manage him. 794 00:48:22,000 --> 00:48:24,000 But he reared and plunged and landed me on the shingle, 795 00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:26,000 and I grazed my knee rather badly. 796 00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:29,000 That's why it's painful to pray. 797 00:48:30,000 --> 00:48:32,000 Oh, Dora, I don't want to tell anyone, 798 00:48:33,000 --> 00:48:34,000 but you unless you think I ought to, 799 00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:38,000 because I'm so ashamed of my lack of decorum and gravity. 800 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:42,000 Finally, love, I know it's my vocation to be a nurse. 801 00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:45,000 But is it my vocation to be a nurse? 802 00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:01,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 803 00:49:02,000 --> 00:49:04,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 804 00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:08,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 805 00:49:09,000 --> 00:49:12,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 806 00:49:13,000 --> 00:49:15,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 807 00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:18,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 808 00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:21,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 809 00:49:22,000 --> 00:49:24,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 810 00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:27,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 811 00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:29,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 812 00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:32,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 813 00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:35,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 814 00:49:36,000 --> 00:49:38,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 815 00:49:39,000 --> 00:49:41,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 816 00:49:42,000 --> 00:49:44,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 817 00:49:45,000 --> 00:49:47,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 818 00:49:48,000 --> 00:49:49,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 819 00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:51,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 820 00:49:52,000 --> 00:49:53,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 821 00:49:54,000 --> 00:49:55,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 822 00:49:55,000 --> 00:49:57,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 823 00:50:02,000 --> 00:50:05,000 I'm so3642. 824 00:50:05,000 --> 00:50:07,000 I'm so relieved of my vocation to be a nurse. 825 00:50:08,000 --> 00:50:10,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 826 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:13,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 827 00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:15,000 I'm so ashamed of my v shader to be a nurse. 828 00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:18,000 I'm so ashamed of my vocation to be a nurse. 829 00:50:19,000 --> 00:50:21,000 I'm so ashamed of my vunion to be a nurse. 830 00:50:22,000 --> 00:50:24,000 My vocation to be a nurse.